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I have been chain smoking for like 5 hours....i smoked 2 packs i do plan on dieing before i'm 30.
I got off the phone with Maria about an hour ago she has to be up at 6 30 she has easter mass and i think i'll wake her up
I have been up for 48 hours and i am starting to question my sanity.
Why did i agree to go to church with my sister?
I wore my hair curly today... I used to judge my friends on if they liked my hair better curly or straight.... since my hair is naturally curly the friends that liked my hair curly liked me for me and not someone i was trying to be....but now that i look at it...... it's bullshit
I wish i knew someone who was still up.
I am going to see my sister tomorrow....the one i never see...the one who hates me because i took her spot as daddy's little girl
god save me
i have decided that my life is out of control after what happened 2 weeks ago i have been trying very hard to change my life...i stopped smoking pot...and now i only drink on weekends ( but thursday counts as the weekend and i pack in all the drinking i used to do throughout the week in 3 days)
i had a dream...the last time i slept that i got married... but didn't live with the person i married...we were married but it really wasn't that big of a deal which leads me to believe that i will forever have meaningless relationships with people i make myself like.I don't know how to put this...i really don't think i will meet anyone that i could connect with on more than one level. I haven't had it happen yet and i just think it's impossible. Anyone can fall in love but to be able to fall in love with someone that is worth it someone that stimulates you not just physically but mentally is priceless and i hope i am wrong and it is possible.
I have been listening to the same song for 3 hours...
i am thinking about having a drink then putting on The Cure and waking bill (my step dad) up
If one more person ashes in a motherfucking cup at my house i just might kill myself and its not like a paper cup or a plastic cup it's a glass which i always forget to take out my room and my mother finds and yells at me for weeks
i need water
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[12 Nov 2005|06:27pm] |
who even fucking looks at livejournal anymore?
I am a completely different person from the person i was 6 months ago.
i'm single
i'm a full time worker
i'm in college
i'm retarded
for about 3-4 months i just wanted to be single and alone...but now i just want to meet someone cool and not fucking dumb....or gay....or redheaded...or gross
i need to move
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[07 Aug 2005|01:32am] |
Kyle is leaving in the morning... My best friend of 13ALMOST 14 is having her fucking GRAD party tomorrow... and i don't feel one day older than the day i met her...
i'm more scared now than i was 8 weeks ago...
life hurts
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[20 Jul 2005|03:14am] |
Lets make out.
i want my parents to come home...im running out of money
bad news from PR...
tired
i have to go regester for school tomorrow... :/
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[05 Jun 2005|05:39pm] |
ok.
well all things come to an end. Yesterday was my last day at DEB...which as much as im so glad to get out of the hell hole im sad because its a end to a chapter in my life. and graduation is this week which once again is awesome but sad...i'm growing up.
I leave for Puerto Rico in 8 days CAN NOT WAIT!!!!!
sO I'm at home doing nothing... because all my friend are EITHER with their boyfriend/girlfriend or at gay pride...and since neither one of those has ANYTHING to do with me... i'm doing nothing.
die.
at least my hair looks good today
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[10 May 2005|11:49pm] |
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i feel like shit.
But im about to graduate and start over....
i'm scared too but i have to move forward.
Prom was fun.... i think i was only one that liked it out of all my friends... but i dont really give a shit.
i just want to go into my bed and cry.
WHy does this stuff so easy for everyone else.
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[05 May 2005|03:07pm] |
My senior Prom is in one day...
Graduation is in one month...
i can't believe this.
my sister is having a baby
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[03 May 2005|03:21pm] |
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I need to stop listening to Joss Stone
I'm hopeless
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[01 May 2005|08:12pm] |
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SWEEPS WEEK!!!!!!
TV HERE I COME!!!
best week of the year
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[29 Apr 2005|11:38pm] |
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if i fell-the beatles |
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i feel better.
thank god.
and i feel like for the first time in a while i got good advice.
hope.
now i'm listening to 60's music
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[29 Apr 2005|10:58am] |
So i'm almost done being sick...13 days is to long
I'm scared to leave but i can't stay. I'm scared to move on.This might take a while.
Prom is in one week.
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[27 Apr 2005|07:44pm] |
so i'm better.
and worse at the same time
im scared but he's just not that into me.
it hasn't set in yet
this is hard
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[27 Apr 2005|01:53pm] |
Kill me....
I am a loser with no date to prom.
i hate myself.
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[22 Apr 2005|11:12pm] |
i hate
im sick...and my boyfriend is watching a movie i really want to see....
fuck him and fuck being sick...
i'll just sit home and hate myself for another day untill im done being sick
and shut up if i want to take me being sick out on everyone else i will!
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[10 Apr 2005|11:31pm] |
I <3 ABC ON SUNDAY NIGHTS
and i have no life
and i like Jenny because she shut down JOn
and our world is coming to an end...
I hope everything goes ok with Dan <3
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[26 Mar 2005|08:25am] |
i feel like a train just hit me.
JOn is a funny guy... and i'm telling steve hahahaha
Lee-uh should change her name so it is spelt like that
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[23 Mar 2005|08:28pm] |
SOoooooooo....
Livejournal sucks cock...but my hair is wet and i don't feel like doing it so i'll do this.
Some people are just so fake...and not to make anyone feel bad but i hope it rains all next week in florida... :D
well now that we moved on from me being a bitch i hate Image Sun and i hope they burn down. I'm going to Tan at total Tan tomorrow after school.
The other night i ran into the most random people... and i'm going to party with them on good friday.... and school is out so it's going to be one hell of a good friday
i'm gay
but not as much as Jon
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